Do you believe in god? If you do i need your help?

You need to find empowerment on your own, your not a sheep, and you are not inferior to anything written in a book manufactured to produce m content so that people could be more easily controlled, you should look into zen buddism and strive to attain all that you can be, you can find peace through enlightenment, and it all starts with self-awareness. Obviously you need something to lift you up, why not tap into your own spirit to do this, i think that zen buddism will guide you on your path to peace of mind.